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♥ Monday, May 26, 2008


Late at nite, stuck on my desk doing hw. Listening to the radio, starting to get hungry. Having a late nite snack now. (=
Listened to music @ 11:57 PM

♥ Sunday, May 18, 2008


What a day, perfect for ice cream eating. Too bad it's starting to melt.

Listened to music @ 3:13 PM

♥ Friday, May 16, 2008

currently listening: bye bye - mariah carey

today is a sad day for us. tears roll down our cheeks as our favourite teacher who have taught us for nearly 1.5yrs told us that she'll be leaving this school. but right before that we actually wrote a msg tell her not to go, "even if you want to leave, leave after our 'O' levels" on the board and covered it with the screen. during geog lesson as well, we protested. even said, "we are going to drop combined humanities"

that doesn't change anything at all. a fact is a fact. the fact that she'll be leaving us will not change. might as well get over it. cherish the remaining days with our favourite teacher. create beautiful memories with her. the only thing we can do now. as time passes by, we had developed a very strong teacher-students bond within us so it is sad to see her go but have to let go. life is always unfair, i realized.

wipe all those tears away and lets create beautiful memories with her while we still can. next combine humanities lesson: ss; friday.
Listened to music @ 2:38 PM

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i have clearly forgotten what happened on wednesday but here are some pictures i have taken. =) enjoy.
Listened to music @ 2:23 PM

♥ Monday, May 12, 2008

**warning! currently this girl is depressed. therefore, there may contain some vulgarities in this post.**

i didn't catch a single wink last night but i'm clearly okay when i got off of my bed around 6.30am in the morning preparing myself for school. the first thing i realized when i reached the void deck, was the ground was wet. i thought to myself, fuck. i'm gonna climb 4 freaking floors later. well, at least my legs won't get numb this way. i was looking forward to getting my exams papers back, but not math. cause i knew i'm going to fail and that has never changed since pri 3, at least i did passed when i was in sec 2.

the first 3 periods of the day of our separated f&n, d&t periods. during f&n we got back our paper. the first 1hr was used by ms david to scold & nag at us. for the first time, there were failures for f&n. fuck larhs. i sure fail f&n one. but surprisingly, i passed. 21.5/40 it was a just pass. need to drill real hard for f&n in order not to fail. and the last period of f&n was used to make fruit agar-agar.

while walking back to class after f&n for math, ms lim came and walked to class as well. ms lim told us that our photo taking is at 10.10am in the gym. all of us were shocked to hear about this. a short moment later, ms wang came in with our math paper 1. upon receiving my paper, i dare not look at it. slowly, bit by bit i revealed my marks to my eyes which was then afraid to look. alast, the result was disappointing to my eyes. 36/80 was my score and i was starting to feel depressed. fuck fuck fuck. i need another fucking 4 marks to pass my paper 1. sigh. nevermind, just hope that my paper 2 will pull my grades up.

at 10.10am, the whole class went down for photo taking. it was fun during the process and it helped cheer my feelings up abit. after the flash went off, all of us were shouting "argh! my eyes ~ my eyes ~" after the photo taking, it was 10.45am and we went for recess.

it was no surprise when i got back my section B for geo and after i calculated the marks. indeed, i knew. i knew all along i would never be able to pass any geography exams. i scored 7/25 for section A and alittle better in section B which is 8/25. total was 15/50, a straight F9 according to the express grading system or a straight F grade in the normal grading system. this had no effect on me.

my score for physics had an impact on me, and it was a big one. i got depressed after looking at my physics score when we reached IT resource room 2 for physics lesson. 23/50, my heart was starting to bleed but i was able to stop the loss of blood in time. especially when i looked at kaixin's score. almost a perfect score. 49/50 almost. just because of the 1 little mistake she made in the MCQs.

this is when i got totally depressed. i feel like bursting into tears when i got back my eng paper 2. feel like punching people, badly. 37/80 was my score. i wasn't really listening to whatever ms lim was talking about. i was already staring into blank space, and my heart starting oozing blood. no matter how hard i try to stop the blood, it just won't stop. when the bell rang at 2.15pm, i really want to burst into tears. really want to have someone to listen to whatever i have to say. really need a shoulder to lie on.

in the end, i have lost my interest in going westmall for window-shopping. right now, i'm just gorging myself with food, my lunch and snacks later. might watch animes to make me feel better. but now, i got to print those pictures for my table.

this is the girl who is feeling super depressed & is bottling up all her feelings and tears in her heart...
Listened to music @ 3:05 PM

♥ Sunday, May 11, 2008


I was thinking, how much did i spent on buying ppcs throughout this two years playing maple, audition and pangya. Total amount which i had calculated, $465. And the picture shows the ppcs i have. But i had given 3 empty ppcs away to my frens. The oldest are all at the back and starts from the left. The most front and in the center is the ppc i bought most recently, which is last thurs. T.T now i realize why i keep complaining that i'm always broke. All because of buying ppcs to make my maple, audition and pangya characters cashy. Sad.

Well, got to sleep now. However, i do not wish to know my math paper 1 result cause i know, i just know that i'm going to flunk it. T.T
Listened to music @ 9:57 PM

♥ Thursday, May 08, 2008

today is our final paper for the mid-years. so glad that is coming to the end of the horible examinations. chemistry paper 3 & 4 was kinda a tough one. okay larhs, for people who didnt study. =/ before the exam started, kaixin asked me whether i would like to stay back to help ms lim calculate the summary word limit. i agreed to it cause it would be quite interesting to do so.

after the exam ended, some of us stay back to help ms lim calculate the summary word limit. for the sec 3NA. haha. it was fun cause we were amusing ourselves with their handwriting. ^^ anyways, there was clair, jeannie, vivien, kaixin, ann, me and of cause ms lim. hahas. ms toh was complaining that ms lim have so many helpers and her side, none stay back to help her. afew mins later, suyu, vivien, joanne came to help out. ms toh side have 4 helpers as well, but it wasnt enough cause she was calculating the sec 3E. 5 classes's summary and they have like 18 helping words (the beginning ones) and wherelse the sec 3NA only have like 7 helping words. the passage was about banning shirtless workers in china. o__o kinda weird if you ask me. halfway through all of us got off point cause ms toh gave a bag of bookmarks to ms lim ask her to give us. ms lim even told us to take 2 each since's it was free. haha! i took 2 and they were so cute ~ 1 turtle and 1 crab. hahas. xiiaocrabbie.


after helping out, ms lim treat us to ice-cream ~~~ hahas. what a nice teacher. i though that it was us helping her for free. in the end she treat us ice-cream and she told us one thing.
if you can't be slim, treat everyone ice-cream so that everyone will be just like you.

something liddat. ahhahahaha!~

lets do this again, shall we?
Listened to music @ 2:40 PM

♥ Wednesday, May 07, 2008

xD its a rdm spamming post.
cuz i dun feel like updating.
but i feel like blogging.
so its a rdm spamming.
i wanna ply audi ~
i love plying beat up party ~
but i help trix ply hers ~
now most of the NPCs all drained ~
mine still havent drain all yet ~
woots ~
i wanna ply ~
but my comp cannot ply ~
i wan a lappie ~
but the cheapest one is like 1k plus ~
the one i wan is either vivo or HP de ~
anyways ~
i dun feel like spamming now ~
go watch vampire knight ep 5 ~
hohoho ~
=x
Listened to music @ 8:13 PM

♥ Monday, May 05, 2008

having EL p2 & science p1 & p2 which are physics. when i got to the gym, i noticed that im about to sit at a dangerous spot. out of nowhere, a giant fan was infornt of me. to make it worst, it was damn noisy. but i kinda like the wind if it was blowing me directly. it was blowing a side of me and thank goodness for it! i wasnt feeling so well in the 1st place. TT sore throat + blocked nose + slight fever = dont feel like moving, dont feel like going to school, feel like rotting in my room, playing maple or cheena audi. TT but i really want to play auditionsea. TT

math p2 tmr.
Listened to music @ 4:18 PM

♥ Sunday, May 04, 2008

hmm. was bored & went to read a ex-teacher's blog and found a little interest in doing it.

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Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don’t understand our partner’s requirements, or even our own. We all have a “love tank” that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.


The Five Love Languages

My primary love language is probably
Quality Time
with a secondary love language being
Acts of Service.

Complete set of results

Quality Time: 9
Acts of Service: 7
Physical Touch: 6
Words of Affirmation: 5
Receiving Gifts: 3


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Unhappiness in relationships, according to Dr. Gary Chapman, is often due to the fact that we speak different love languages. Sometimes we don't understand our partner's requirements, or even our own. We all have a "love tank" that needs to be filled in order for us to express love to others, but there are different means by which our tank can be filled, and there are different ways that we can express love to others.

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Listened to music @ 12:11 AM

♥ Thursday, May 01, 2008

omq ~
im currently addicted to audi for no reasons. T^T going to lan tomorrow and i dont care. im so going to clear my xiiaocrabbie's lvl 11 license and prepare my xCRABBIEx's lvl 7 license. >< plus learn chance. hehe. anyways, got to study hard as well. cause exams are still ongoing. until next thurs. monday will be having.. hmm.. EL p2 & physics paper. =) tomorrow i dun have to go back to sch is bcuz tmr they are having chinese paper 2 & 3. hehe.

CHIONG ARHS ~ AUDITIONSEA TOMORROW ~ LEVEL 11 LICENSE (xiiaocrabbie) ~ LEVEL 7 (xCRABBIEx) ~
Listened to music @ 9:35 PM